Emotions

Sometimes when your mind is completely free, lots of thoughts cross your mind and the quote mentioned below surfaced in my brain. 

Awards and recognition

Having completed one and half decade of teaching Physics passionately,  I am now going to be awarded for my efforts. The news came as a pleasant surprise but what is baffling me currently is the question in my mind ' Do I deserve it'? Professionally I know I have been experimenting, always redefining my teaching strategies and desiring to learn more but when I compare myself to others, I always feel they know more and they are better. Is this more personal?

I am still working on the issue and dissecting my personality. Could be I suffer from low self esteem or could be, I see people more deserving than me receive it. I still need to work on this aspect.

Nevertheless an award signifies your achievements and motivates you to perform better. I already have planned more goals and tasks for myself.

I have also observed people's attitudes to your achievements. Surprisingly the closest have yet to call. A simple whattsapp message is all I received whereas acquaintances were overjoyed. The proudest were your parents who went on to share it anyone and everyone who would listen. Life is full of unpredictable scenes and there is a learning everywhere.

As I sit on my balcony, I truly reflect on all and thank the almighty for all his graciousness and silently enjoy the dramas played around.