Priya was annoyed. She paced her living room the 50th time. Varun was supposed to be home on time after all it was their 15th wedding anniversary. It was a precious moment for them. She had been calling him but the phone was unreachable. So, where was he?
Around 11:30 pm, Varun walked in looking very happy. He had struck a huge deal and he couldn't wait to share it with Priya. His business was truly going great. As he began to talk, Priya pounced on him with harsh words and they had a huge fight. Each moved on to separate rooms extremely disillusioned. The next day, the household was silent, they spoke when required, moved about their tasks as if the previous day's fight had never happened.
Priya couldn't understand the human mind. It had processed that the people around her had limitations where the display of affection is concerned and still it lingered for more. It had countlessly over the years seen that birthdays and anniversaries didn't matter and it still expected. It refuses to come to terms that not everyone is sensitive or emotional and keeps begging for more and when it experiences detachment, it shatters and breaks down.
She wanted to know how one explains to the self that it is pointless to walk in the direction where people have a varied definition of love not synchronizing with yours? How does one tell themself that only you will be burning in that fire and that the pain is not going to affect anyone else? How does one get control of their emotions when one is ready with a tear to shed on the slightest of actions? Why is it that nothing brings down the pain?
She wishes for detachment, wishes for a stronger heart praying that she learn not to expect especially from the closest and dearest. She feels like a fool who knows that the others are not to blame but just herself. They are the way they are, so why be affected. Yet, ye dil maange more. So yes, few more days of torture and unhappiness because all this has been invited by her and her alone.
Varun tapped his fingers restlessly on the keyboard not able to concentrate on the task in front of him. What had he done so wrong? There was a huge business opportunity and lots of money to be made. The deal going successful would only give him more occasions to pamper the family. He loved them and wished to see them happy. Every day for him was a marriage anniversary so why did Priya want only one day to be made special. If they couldn't celebrate it that day, they could on another day. There was an entire life ahead of them. She was making too much noise for one particular day and she had to understand that. Let her sulk and come to terms with herself.
A few days later, life continued as normal. They appeared as a happy couple to all but were they really?
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